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Hi All,

I have moved...

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mahsa xxx

posted by: mahsa09 at October 14, 2009 20:52 | link | comments |

Khaleeji Fashion

FINISHED writing course exam one at last... now I can rest in peace.

I'm so excited in a wierd way. I have wanted a proper bling khaleeji abayah for God knows how long and now I decided I will purchase a simple saudi crepe abaya and get some iron on diamante designs and iron them on to my patterns and taste.

So I can have the sleeves, the bottom and expecially the shayla exactly how I want. :) Gameeeeeeel!!!


I love heavy sleeves. Don't they look really lush??

 Credit of this pic goes to MasrNet.

posted by: mahsa09 at October 13, 2009 22:42 | link | comments |
fashion, diamantes, hijab, abaya, khaleej

Ok so only one question to go - which I will fully make the Boss help me tomorrow at work.

I like my boss, he smiles, he speaks in a quiet soft way and when he wants to tell you off, he says, i think that is incorrect. In short he is a sweetheart.

My one year engagement anniversary is coming up - which is funny because most people don't even know I am unofficially engaged. He bought me a ring. A white gold custom made ring with a real diamond. Its beautiful but a little scratched because I kept washing dishes with it on.

It's his mothers birthday this weekend. And his father is divorcing her because she is an alcoholic and he has tried to help her for over 10 years and now he has cancer and he just wants to die in peace the remaining years he has left. It's sad; and I dont know what to do or how to help; especially as they are both such nice people.

I guess he is so upset about the divorce that is why he has been off colour recently.

I said Jag Alskar Dig to his dad the other day. His dad was really happy :)

I pray some miracle happens and things get better for them; I really do.

posted by: mahsa09 at October 12, 2009 22:15 | link | comments |
Husayn, life&love

I'm trying to write this assignment and its making me fiddle.....

last night was bad - I cried for 2 hours. I thought I was losing my emaan. But then I questioned myself... do I believe in the Shahada? yes, do i believe in quran? yes, fiqh? yes, aqeedah? yes etc etc but I still felt like a munafiq.

Then I called on Husayn (the Imam), YA HUSAYN MADDAD... for a long time then I fell asleep.

I had a dream that my friend Aisha, she came to me and said to me, " Nafeesa and Sakina make the hearts grow closer to each other".

I wonder what that means?

posted by: mahsa09 at October 12, 2009 20:23 | link | comments |
religion, dreams

I hate who I have become;

I hate getting mad over the smallest of things.

I hate that feeling inside me that is fighting the moderate religion to the loopy...

I hate being surrounded by people who are so smug in their own lifestyles they make it their business to talk down to you or to belittle you...

And yet I hate beign surrounded by exceedingly stupid people.

I don't where that zest I used to have went? Is this what grown up life does to us? That I sit and stare at my bookshelf all day but not even one muscle twitches to pick one up?

I hate how people who have not grown up in your culture try to tell you what to do or how to treat your family or how to behave.

But I most of all hate that the pink bubble I used to live in has finally burst.

posted by: mahsa09 at October 11, 2009 21:31 | link | comments (1) |
lifestyle, life&love

Lunch

Today was nice. The moroccan setting the friendly faces - was lovely.

I did get a little agitated when Husayn forgot his belongings but we sorted it out.

The funny thing is our company Mr Accounting mentioned to Husayn he wasnt too thrilled he didnt get to pick his own food - oh well 3 domineering women what can I say?

I loved seeing you Ana... it made my day. You are so beautiful inside and out and truly my best friend.

Loved seeing Mary too - brings back the good old days of girl parties, belly dancing and mawlids.

Ana - Husayn thought something really wierd must have gone on because you didnt tell the whole English class story LOL LOL.

posted by: mahsa09 at October 11, 2009 20:25 | link | comments |
wayfarer, Husayn

livejournal??

Mahsa is wondering whether to move to livejournal because its a bit  lonely here and Mahsa feels isolated and there is hardly any activity and you cant search for people and no one is ever online except advertisers...

posted by: mahsa09 at October 10, 2009 21:00 | link | comments (2) |
livejournal

YES I was definately loopy last night. I suppose what I mean to say was, is window shopping healthy, even if you don't buy??

But then Shaykh says, you get de-sensitized to the one you see daily in all of his/her forms, when tired, hungry, dirty, angry etc but the ones you see outside you only see them in the best of forms and someone else sees them in all their forms. So one should bear this in mind.

But what I realised is, as much as anyone tells you they love you; its the one who stays with you who truly means it!!

For the others it would just be words, and as my Shaykh says, words are cheap.

Yes I have a Shaykh, a spiritual master in the sciences of tasawuf. Not the crazy floating in air stuff, the art of improving ones character and heart.

At the moment I'm struggling; I have no will to do my awrad (meditations). I feel tired all the time and due to the many disagreements with Husayn sometimes I just feel to angry to sit and contemplate.

But I have intention to calm down and get back on track again...

Im so excited about tomorrow - I just hope the food will be good. Mahsa is hungry. Mahsa wants to eat.

posted by: mahsa09 at October 10, 2009 15:37 | link | comments |
Husayn, life&love

I know its 2am and all the coffee is making me loopy but is it ok to have a non-sexual affair to actually improve your own relationship? Not sure how exactly this is working in my head but it kind of is??

posted by: mahsa09 at October 10, 2009 02:00 | link | comments (1) |
life&love

Arguing with him sometimes makes me feel relationships are not worth their salt.

He makes my insides boil the way no one does and I just want to run away from it when it gets too much.

Why do we stay? Why dont we just up and leave like we think we would like to?

posted by: mahsa09 at October 10, 2009 01:31 | link | comments |
Husayn, life&love